This week I have to notify an employee of her last day. This is not a place I ever saw myself in, actually I remember specifically speaking that this is a position I desired to avoid, manager...it holds too much responsibility over other people.
As I was contemplating the tasks that lay ahead for my work week, it took me to the place of my life and how similar managing is needed. There is a relationship in my life that I believe has come to the end of its road. Like this employee, this friend has been very beneficial to me in many areas, I have been spurred on in my walk, my relationship with Christ has grown, I have grown, I have learned a deeper understanding of love and dying to self. But now, more than aiding in the progress of things, we have come to a place of hindrance, just as this employee, there is not room in our office to keep her and hire another. As with this friend, we are not allowing the Lord to place the needed relationships in our lives. This is a hard place to be in, you can see all the potential of the one, sad to say goodbye, a feeling of failure, but the reality of the wall you have run into is so strong, a change must happen. The excitement of other possibilities, goals to be accomplished, unity to be had, dreams to be met....and yet the sadness clings, the void will be there for awhile, both in the office and in my heart, both will be tough to fill and both will take time.
A huge challenge is before me this week, both in the office and in my heart.
Father, give me the strength, the compassion and love needed for these tasks. I also ask that I will be completely surrendered as You remold my dreams. Thank You for claiming my heart, for guiding my steps, for leading the way.
We were blessed to close the miles for a few days when my friend, Robin and her baby Josey came to VA for a visit.
